Monthly Archives: December 2009

catacombs, christmas and more

So … what you are about to get is a piece of my mind …
this are notes from more than a week of events …
again they are going to be a little scattered and incomplete sometimes … but hey … who really cares … anway … i’ve got pictures on my phone but I have to wait to get them off then you’ll see them!

Ok so …

let s flash back to the 12/23/09

It’s 10:12 on the east coast of america … but i’m in paris france where it’s 4:12 am

i’ve just come home after a 5 hr trek to and through the underground tunnels of paris!

Dopeness at ground level! And I mean ground level as in ground water. We tread through the water thanks to 6 euro knee high rubber boots and faced the darkness with 4 euro 7 LED headlamps, lit the evenings jam session with free candles from rockstar cuz’s house and the most expensive part of the 5 hrs experience were the 2 hrs spent lost … can you say PRICELESS!!!

A mini-castle, clean ground water, gargoyle heads, drunk tour guides, home made liquor from spain, graffatti, battery powered guitar amps, tags that said “goonies, we live, and fuck you”, 2 gated exits, the scream, desperado beer, wet socks, egyptians, a spur of the moment thought abut beating the tour guides ass for getting us lost, the beach, a redeeming trek to the exit, violent thoughts, few funny pictures on my phone and the remembrance of a christmas eve from a labyrinth of madness like i’ve never experienced before.

did i mention there was some incredible art down here!?!

no these aren’t my pics … but i have almost these exact pics on my phone camera!

ok so … these were my thoughts immediately after the experience

but then i wrote this the following day …

it’s dec 25 … christmas day … i’m in paris

rock star cuzs’ friends, Farmer& c-rock the tea walla!, were with us in the catacombs … and they agreed that it was all a metaphor of life.

Rock star cuz described the event as a school friend trip that went wrong! kinda like the bus breaks down and your like “yea … the adventure goes on” then you realize “damn we need the bus to get home!”

this is how i kinda saw the experience. We go deep beneath the surface of ourselves just for the adventure sometimes. To check out what’s going on. Many times we’re guided by the inspiration of someone that we don’t really know. sometimes it’s a parable, a quote, a mantra, a book, an idea … but, in the end we make the decision. How we implement that decision is often largely influenced by the resources that are bought to the table by those that are closest to us. If we were to design & construct a car it still wouldn’t run w/o the tires. Our friends are our tires. They have their rubber on the road and allow us to move in various directions. Good tires are important to a car for many reasons. They influence how far you go on a tank of gas and can stop your progress if they aren’t durable. They also deal with potholes, bad weather and have to be aware of vandals too. So … all that to say it’s important to surround ourselves with people with shared principles that we trust and that are smart, visionary, fearless, balanced, guided, hard working, loving and creative. Well those are the standards for my people-my peoples! [in retrospect … it was late … I was tired. But it sort of made sense!?!]

Then there was christmas … i’m not gonna go into my anti holiday rant … i’m turning a new leafe for 2010 … no i’m not celebrating a bunch of stuff but I will be more involved in utilizing time away from work to gather and enjoy friends and family.

ok i’m fading it’s 4 am



stuff … world, bazaar, fear, univerbal, hayti, goddis, china, mocky, washington, return

DIG IT … i had issues w/ embedding videos in this and i don’t know html enough to really look at this stuff thoroughly so i did what i could … SOOOO
do click the link (right click into and open another window if you want)

right now … the house is full of people and they are all talking about art and life and stuff and i’m focused on this keyboard. yes it’s a little anti-social but hey … i’m not as social as people think and i need to write this. actually …
i took a break from writing … and ate. and now we’re going on a tour of the parisian underground!

so … last night i’m sitting at a table of world travelers. cats are telling stories about spain, australia, new zealand, all over europe and asia, numerous countries in africa, the middle east, north, south and central america, for real … world travelers. and who are they … a farmer, a poet, a tattoo artist, a photographer, leathersmith and me. everyone is special and holds a sense of magic magic in their own right. the rest have long embraced their powers. i’ve recognized mine, but even now, i’m struggling to embrace the shine. it’s a constant battle. i know i’m destine for great things but i don’t feel prepared for fame or wealth at times in part because there was a time in my life where i let money guide my actions. i was a money hungry monster. now success scares me sometimes. i know the kind of success that i’m destine for is larger than “U” street. but “U” street has a great way for me to practice being successful. i know there have been some battles with self discipline that i have lost on u street. now i’m weary of bigger success at times. but hey … i’ve grown and over come issues too. i tell others that far too often we focus on our losses instead of seeing all the things we’ve accomplished. as i write this … i’m starting to feel pretty good about some of the things i’ve done. i’m feeling hella humbled right now.

random thought: i’m still trying to shake this fear thing. and … i’m a little messed up because i realized that i am 3 weeks behind schedule on my work on getting settled back in dc. i need to redo my resume and get back into the habit of punching a clock. and a lot more. i really do think i’m superdude and i get mad at myself for having human limitations sometimes!

anyway … i’ll be back in the states soon enough. it’s a daunting feeling. i feel like i’m just starting to get in the mix of things here heavy … but now i need to start to wrap my head around my return. but i’m not ready … yet at the same time … i am in a space that is really different from when i left. i like the hustle but i don’t need it like i thought i did. i know i need stability to move forward. i know now that i can write better than i thought i could. i know now that i often gain a lot by doing nothing. i look forward to sitting somewhere and doing nothing in DC. i wanna write more. i want to continue this blog thing. i feel connected to the art of writing now. i like it. i want to make time to do it in my life. (haha that sounds so stoic!)

recently … i’ve been reminded that i work best (more, efficiently, longer, harder, smarter) when a part of a team. i’m looking for the right team. i think that i’m ready to be on a team. i’ve got some people around me that i feel are ready to fill the roles needed. if you’re ready … lets go! 😉

ok … now for the fun stuff …

on sunday i went to this holiday marketplace bazaar thingy …

it was cool. in this nice big grand hall and it had live performances and fashion shows. it was a afri-carribean focused event that highlighted hayti.

some of the acts were …
a hip hop artist named alibi montana (i wish i knew where he got that name from!)

mellisa laveaux … a dope hatian/french/candian on NO FORMAT Records distributed by universal records france.

the headline was a hatian band called company creole … i can’t find any links to them so come back in a few days i’ll have it!

i was there as a guest of my peoples romain & ferricia of UNIVERBAL which put out the album Enfants Soldats. i mess with these cats because they not only good people but they are also about their biz. 80% of the proceeds of the albums sales goes to an organization in the congo that is actively working against youth soldiering and re-integration. (remember to check the links!)

it was a a cool event …

and i met this cat mike sylla
who has a wealth of things going on! So … the funny thing about this dude is that we’re talking and he’s telling me about his art, his store, his poetry and his play and then says … “you know queen godis!” check the video’s on the link!

oh … and the other day i met a dope jazz vocalist china moses who has a rock project in addition to this jazz project.

only 14% of us citizens have passports … even if you can’t get t ticket anywhere right now … get one … JUST IN CASE!!!

i gotta learn html!

like cold, affirmation, poem, wildcookie, super viral brothers, d’joln, christ like

yo …

i didn’t even go outside today … why? IT’S STILL TOO COLD!!!
like … it’s hella COLD!!!

ok so i wrote out the things i wanted for the winter solstice and i’m gonna make symbols visual representations of them and hang them here in the apartment … since i don’t really get down with the christmas thing (for a number of reasons this) this will be my ritual for the new year

these are the things i request of the universe …

clarity in my personal, artistic, emotional and professional life, fearlessness and an abundant inflow of love, fiscal wealth (from multiple sources), discipline (self & assisted) and stability, in the form of a new & creative job … in a warm place that pays me what i believe i am worth!

writing out your those things is a great exercise to do monthly.
and honestly i didn’t write them out here as detailed as a did in my journal. what? u can’t blame me for wanting to keep my biz my biz sometimes!

i did have a creative thought … it’s kinda a stream of thought thing but not … but sort of … well here it is …

i looked up … the sun
to my left a rainbow
my then my eyes dropped into a dream
right, you were.

i looked down and watched a tear fall
to the top of a cloud
and to my left and saw the sunset
high was the moon
right you were … again.

but that was then …
silence speaks
and whispers curse at my spirit in surround sound
strong arming my soul
engulfing me like a stagnant funk
clutched by a churches
voiceless stench of pious misconduct


rebounding drops of air lift me past pains threshold
here in to the reality i find myself bound
music won’t free you anymore … for free
like kunta’s solo steps the dance is done
imagination lost in the math of a snowflake
and the icy crash of winter spit on concrete streets
where love is the fox maimed by the hunters and hounds

the end(i just edited it 22.12.09)

and this was the sunset today!

and yo … don’t forget … this is the most depressing time of the year for many people … don’t take for granted that people are in a joyous holiday spirit … or that they even celebrate or give a rats ass about the holidays!

and remember if you are giving to the community at christmas that’s not being christ like … being christ like is when you do it all the time … all year long.
lets work on that …

try being a kind person first …
then try being kind to your self …
then try being kind to other people … JUST BCUS …



it’s cold …

i don’t like being cold …

i was up until early this morning writing. 9ish i lifted my head and looked out the window. it was snowing! i cringed … then i quickly tucked my head under my covers and feel asleep for another 2hrs!

it’s cold … real cold … it was -2 c today!
i say already that i don’t like to be cold!

did i tell youthat my bed is in the “sun cove” … whisch means is surrounded by windows … which measns in the summer it’s beautiful … and in the winter … the wall that i sleep next to … is 7 floors up and COLD as (add you own explitive)!

but i’m in paris … so i went out! … i put on a layer of clothes for each floor i was up! and hit the streets

plus, not only will many people never have the chance to make this trip, (i heard less than 50% of US citizens have passports and only 20% off the african-american community have them! now the reasons & history behind that is another blog!)i wanted to get some food (and a baguette!)

and i think that’s was really chery lynn “to be real”


who would be interested in doing a 1 week artist exchange in paris … and then hosting a artist for week later in the summer? gig swap, work together, exhibit, do joint shows, sight see, etc … let me know who’s interested and then watch me do my thing!!!

or if you are open to hosting a artist let me know.

i said i was gonna connect the dots … watch me …


lil cuz … some good … some not as good!

ok …

so lil cuz rolled out for the holidays. rockstar cuz took her to the airport. she’s such a daddy lil girl … when she can be. she’s such a lil teddy bear that wants to be a big bad grizzley! but she is still hella anti-conformist balanced w/ a pop feel appeal to it. it’s great how she loves to kiss and hug all over her pops! rockstar cuz was a little nervous because he seems to have a little stalker! yea like a real one. the stalker contacted his mom recently. he had to contact “the man” to file a formal complaint! evidently it’s been going on for years! crazy huh! but she’s ok w/ family and is more than likely talking about new moon right now! but hey … when the acts away the mice will play SO i went to a spot called cafe le peche!

my homie ferricia hooked me up w/ this cat steeve who evidently is a highly respected cat on the scene. EVERYONE gave the dude dap! it was impressive!

le peche is out in the 20th arrondissement at the end of the line … Montreuil

dude walks me through the cut to get to the spot. outside is decorated w/ graff.
inside there’s a little cafe space and if you walk through that there is a performance space that holds about 150-200 ppl. the first thing that stood out about the space is that there was a full lighting rig. DOPEness! and the SOUND WAS GREAT!!!

so now that that was taken care of … lets get to the talent!!!
ok … for real … i missed a few acts! it was too cold and i really didn’t wan tot go out earlier. and i took a nap and over slept! my bad! so …

when i got there this dude was on stage and i’m not even gonna say his name or describe him as any more than a artist that has room for improvement in his stage presentation and in his audience engagement. well actually let me take that back. no … i won’t the kids were using him as a excuse. and these youngin’ were wyldin’ out.

they do this thing like a mosh pit. it’s fly! it was all males. i was once again reminded how the hip hop industry is not only male dominated but driven by testosterone inspired and producing music. youngin’s would run up to the stage, plant their foot on the edge and push them selves back into the crowd like a stage dive. they were jumping on each others backs and being physically aggressive with each other. you cold tell that the security had good relationships w/ the youth. when they introduced their presence the crowd was still rowdy but they became more respectful of others in the room … especially anyone that was standing near/protecting the sound and lighting systems!

then there was a dope trio of emcees … but i have to find their name … i’ll get back at up on this .. but they smashed!

anyway … after that they finished there was a break and i was given a tour of the facilities. they have 3 rehearsal studios with drums, amps, mixing board, mics & other backline. and it’s only 10e an hr!!! you can also have the rooms set up to record for an additional fee. there were office upstairs but i don’t check them out. i met the director and we talked so i will be going back to pick his brain a little.

so this cat comes on that looks like a gucci mayne and is rhyming over the lil wayne milli track from 1989 … anyway .. evidently he was talking about the million ways he gets his swerveon w/ the ladies and the young ladies didn’t like it and i actually heard some booing gong on! and because of that … i wont mention his name either!

oh and then there was the battle …

i have no idea what they were saying but one dude SMASHED his 2 opponents! it wasn’t even funny! but after that …


he poked his head backstage and then went right on stage and KILLED IT!!!

great crowd control … hot songs … great set development .. he did the damn thing!

the headline was this cat brasco
he did a Q & A with the youth of the center … i missed it but they were a rowdy crowd but they were quiet while he talked!

i saw him backstage. a humble cat. grounded and it shows on stage
he ripped it!

after the show a few b-boys did their thing. 1 was really good b-boy. the others were more poppers & i could have battled them … and won!

oh and the first dude tried his hand at break dancing … he hadsome ideas formoves but he should have trained & rehearsed before he got in the dance floor!

ok now that’s all i’m gonna say today … and here’s the start of the story …

Shymel has had it rough the past couple of days …

when he woke up it was raining!

then he missed a phone call … the call is from CARLOS, his favorite, closest cousin, good friend & competition in life! CARLOS is a poet and musician that has just moved to paris w/ his 12 year old daughter MOON to work on his next album. he wants SHY to come to paris because it was something they used to talk about as kids. SHY has been sending e-mails w/ questions about the experience but CARLOS hasn’t responded

but it gets worse …

see shymel (SHY) heard a rumor 2 months ago that the youth center he runs was being shut down. he asked his mentor about it and she said that the rumor was false. others still said it was truth. and …

last night he and Helen, his girlfriend of over 7 years, got into a big argument … about marriage. he’s ready for marriage. she saying he’s not life or their relationship serious. he’s not even preparing for a new job and that there’s no way they’re going to get married. in the middle of the argument CARLOS calls. he reaches to answers the phone … she knocks the phone out his hand … it breaks! he picks up the pieces up off the floor. when he stands up … she throws him a pillow and a blanket at him … couch time … he drops and he dropped the phone again!

the next day SHY is up early for a big meeting at work. so is HELEN. she doesn’t speak to him … except on they way out the door she ask for the umbrella because she left hers at work yesterday. and then suggest that he get some mint tea, wash detergent, toothpaste, oh, and she needs some pads/tampons and a moleskin notepad for work.

of course … it starts to rain as he walks to the bus stop now sheltered …
while he’s waiting he’s says thank god that there aren’t too many people under the shelter today. just then a crew of 3-6 youth on their way to school walk under the bus stop awning, in an light argument … then one of the elementary school kids looks at SHY and says very politely …

“excuse me sir … tell them that you didn’t have cell phones or cd’s back growing up back then! and they used to watch tv on the radio … right?”
he laughs it off … and says that he’s not “that” old but yes there was a time before cellphones, cd’s and tv’s when they only had radios shows that told stories like they do now on tv.

what do you think …

And they like the shine explosion on the hand shake!!!

hbd … i’m spreading the shine vibe & handshake international too!